thursday. friday, and its the weekends and the holidays! and up till now, so far so good, no teacher has asked us to return for extra lessons. been burying my head in books these few days. finished kite runner which is super nice cause its really super touching and just finished double cross which is quite nice too, about huting down killers which are like super egoistic. and this i'm totally serious, they're worse than me okay, i swear. got some part inside that book is quite disgusting though, if you ever read it haha. and i strongly reccomend kite runner. its seriously dam nice. although there's a part of the book where i dont even understand what it was talking about. overall i give it 4 stars. haha i'm not a critic :x read it if you have the time. the book revolves around ethnic conflicts and how they're so closely connected and even end up tearing a country into pieces. now i shall find the old man and the sea. you know lao ren yu hai ;D and shall find a thousand splendid suns too ;D nice books please fly into my arms hehe cant wait to read more books. the joy of reading ;DD
shall cram my holidays with alot of activities to make sure i get the right mix of play and study. hardwork and sweat has to go into this recipe to make everything work, that's for sure. so many things to reflect on, so many things to change. but i guess if i actually work hard on them, my flaws can actually become my strength. i shall take the whole of the march holidays to reflect on myself and push myself harder. i've fallen, but i've became stronger by standing up and showing the world that i'm not exactly any pushover. No one can push you down, destroy you. It's you who decide whether you want to be destroyed, to be stepped on, to be pushed around. Everyone is strong, it's time to let this side of us take over the fight and push forward. haha yay do i sound philosphical? oh man my spelling really sucks. maybe i shall take the consideration of putting the dictionary into my must read booklist one of these days. but i'm a procrastinator. so obviously it would get a 75% chance of not happening hehe. :x okay. must stay true to my words. it's so true when people say its easy to say and hard to do, seeing all the living examples happening before my eyes but i never really got hold of their meanings.
oh well, everyone must enjoy the holiday cause it's probably the only holiday we're going to have for this whole year at least before our O levels take the centre stage. when it does, we'll be so busy that we will become oblivious to everythingelse that's happening around us. and when that happens, even the smallest of things can spark off a fight, a strong emotion that urges you on. and life then would be without any fun, everyone burying their heads into their notes and textbooks, chao muggers, mugging really hard for the end, racing to the finish line. after we've finish our race, we'll all be so beat and exhausted to even remember anything that happened during the course of the year. hopefully, all bad things then will be forgotten. and only the things that really touched you will remain in your heart forever and ever, as long as time allows it.
secondary school has come to a closure and everyone moves on. things that will forever be remembered and i know what they are or who they are. sometimes you dont have to guess, it's probably like a natural reaction. and i guess life's unfair sometimes. people dont always manage to see the good of everything. it's only human nature to jump to a conclusion and cause misunderstandings to arise. for certain things too. it's probably unfair that suddenly everything is against you when you've done nothing wrong. and other's when they're the one at fault, they get all the praises and you sit there and receive all the shit. but that's part and parcel of life. if you can get past the shit, who knows what's more out there for you to discover and what more for you to surpass. so just bear with it for now. it's only momentarily. i guess some people just give people the feeling that they're really the goody goody and that they'll never commit any crime when it's just so the other way round.
忍一时，风平浪静。
退一步，海阔天空。
everyone can do it. i have faith in everyone. (gives the thumbs up sign ;D)
change is the way i feel good.